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Monday, February 16, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
something's missing
CNY has passed us again. This is the n-th CNY that I have celebrated. It seems as years go by, CNY has become more and more boring. What is missing here?
When I visited my housemate, boong's house somehow I felt the feeling of CNY is back. Relatives all gathering and having dinner together, the atmosphere was full of joy and laughter, having to compete for food in the steamboat. Going out for supper at nite with the whole car load of relatives. The closeness of the bond between family members, cousins alike. Somehow that has been lost on my side. I was emo when I stayed overnight at his house. I felt that this is what CNY was and is supposed to be. What has happened nowadays that my family seems to lost it? I don't feel the closeness anymore. Where has it gone to?
I miss the time where my uncle used to bring me around at nites before CNY, I miss the midnight temple visit, I miss the lion dance troupe that always performed at my grandma's house, I miss a whole bunch of things that I couldn't list. Somehow nowadays we just gather but we hardly talk to each other, the house seems crowded with people but empty of soul at the same time. Am I the only one who couldn't move on?
The emptiness is frustrating, laying on my bed through the whole CNY, feeling extremely bored. Everyone seems to be getting very busy with their work nowadays, some don't even have time to come back for CNY. Where's the new year song? I hardly can listen to them anymore.
Why is everywhere open for business? What happened to the days when even shopping complexes close for the 1st day of new year? It seems nobody cares anymore, they just want to earn as much as possible, thats all.
Undeniably as years passed on, my angpao has gotten more and more but I would rather trade it all with what has been lost. House visiting has gone stale too. Wheres the bak gua? I cant see them anymore?
My mind's jumbled up, I don't know how to type anymore.
I just want it all back! I wish to have the OLD CNY! Arghhh. I just feel like screaming.
When I visited my housemate, boong's house somehow I felt the feeling of CNY is back. Relatives all gathering and having dinner together, the atmosphere was full of joy and laughter, having to compete for food in the steamboat. Going out for supper at nite with the whole car load of relatives. The closeness of the bond between family members, cousins alike. Somehow that has been lost on my side. I was emo when I stayed overnight at his house. I felt that this is what CNY was and is supposed to be. What has happened nowadays that my family seems to lost it? I don't feel the closeness anymore. Where has it gone to?
I miss the time where my uncle used to bring me around at nites before CNY, I miss the midnight temple visit, I miss the lion dance troupe that always performed at my grandma's house, I miss a whole bunch of things that I couldn't list. Somehow nowadays we just gather but we hardly talk to each other, the house seems crowded with people but empty of soul at the same time. Am I the only one who couldn't move on?
The emptiness is frustrating, laying on my bed through the whole CNY, feeling extremely bored. Everyone seems to be getting very busy with their work nowadays, some don't even have time to come back for CNY. Where's the new year song? I hardly can listen to them anymore.
Why is everywhere open for business? What happened to the days when even shopping complexes close for the 1st day of new year? It seems nobody cares anymore, they just want to earn as much as possible, thats all.
Undeniably as years passed on, my angpao has gotten more and more but I would rather trade it all with what has been lost. House visiting has gone stale too. Wheres the bak gua? I cant see them anymore?
My mind's jumbled up, I don't know how to type anymore.
I just want it all back! I wish to have the OLD CNY! Arghhh. I just feel like screaming.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
moo.
could not sleep well last night. blanketed, from toes up to shoulders, eyes closed. then i started counting baa baa white sheeps trying to fall asleep, but to no avail. i pulled the blanket over head, warm enough, sleep, inviting sleep. another vain attempt. lol. fine. i stopped trying, and started thinking. i felt like i have missed something, hmmmm.. what could it be?
right, i forgot to pray ;)
i whispered a few words of thanksgiving, turned left, right, left then right again and.. i forgot what happened next.. lol i fell asleep.
but not into deep sleep. my brain was having a party of its own. lol. i woke up the next day feeling groggy..zZZzz.. the feeling went off after a while. thank God.
and so the moral lecture started at 8.15 a.m. had some briefing on mid-term questions. one part of it is an essay about the malaysian armed forces. pasukan pertahanan malaysia? alangkah menarik. hahaha. never bothered to read about it before, it is about time. lol. due date, february 13.
the reason why i am blogging now is because i am feeling extremely sleepy. i c.a.n.t a.f.f.f.o.r.d t.o. w.a.s.t.e my t.im.e sleepi.n.g. so i blog. good thing it works. i am not sleepy anymore. heeee ;)
right, i forgot to pray ;)
i whispered a few words of thanksgiving, turned left, right, left then right again and.. i forgot what happened next.. lol i fell asleep.
but not into deep sleep. my brain was having a party of its own. lol. i woke up the next day feeling groggy..zZZzz.. the feeling went off after a while. thank God.
and so the moral lecture started at 8.15 a.m. had some briefing on mid-term questions. one part of it is an essay about the malaysian armed forces. pasukan pertahanan malaysia? alangkah menarik. hahaha. never bothered to read about it before, it is about time. lol. due date, february 13.
the reason why i am blogging now is because i am feeling extremely sleepy. i c.a.n.t a.f.f.f.o.r.d t.o. w.a.s.t.e my t.im.e sleepi.n.g. so i blog. good thing it works. i am not sleepy anymore. heeee ;)
Saturday, January 31, 2009
i don't go in sequence, but i will try
slam dunk is my all time favourite anime. love the song, love the characters, love the team-spirit, love the soundtrack, love the show. i must say that rukawa kaede is by far, my favourite character. yes i know, almost all the girls who watch slam dunk are crazy about rukawa, even the girls in the show itself,. lol. who cares. i don't see why would anyone not like him, with his superb skills, hardcore determination to win, and versatility, he is a superb multitalented player. despite his cold looks, he is actually very adorable.. he has a pink bicycle and his favourite past time is sleeping. i am 25% like him, *melts* ;) hanamichi sakuragi, mitsui, sendoh, and gorilla, these are some of the other characters that i like. seriously lah, you gotta watch this anime especially if you minat basketball. if you have no whatsoever interest in basketball, also must watch lah, who knows you will be so inspired by the show and be the next MVP? ;) ok, maybe you are too old for MVP.. hmmm.
slam dunk rocks. i am currently in the SL craze again. haha, had just finished watching episode 101, such a disappointment that the show ends there. there is more, but only in manga form. i like anime .. T.T
anyways, back to where i am now. currently at home in seremban. chinese new year 2009 is rather dull, eventhough there is a slight increase in the number of red packets. but what about the content? don't break my heart. lol. i plan to buy an epilator and save up the rest. cannot bear with my pineapple-like leg, heard phillips is good ;)
one thing i like about chinese new year this time around is i get to be with my family. just mom, dad, and bro. i love waking up every morning hearing their voices, talking and interacting. except the part when they start nagging me unnecessarily. lol. family dinners are good, not awesome. i always prefer small gatherings rather than big ones, what is the point of having MANY small groups in a ONE big gathering?
i am going back to cheras tomorrow. and chinese new year has not even ended. i always leave with a heavy heart, and i dislike this feeling, which is why i don't come home every week. am i homely? maybe, not fully, cause i also have this urge to go to far places by myself. do you feel the same? anyways, back to cheras, what comes to my mind now is prof. aisyah. lol. speaking of prof. aisyah, she is one of the medic lecturers whom i have respect for. i feel kinda bad for not doing well in the previous FA. the fact that i used the word 'kinda' made me feel even worse now. lol. i need to start reading the BOOKS that i have bought. eventhough i prefer audio/visual learning. lol. according to linkeong, i will only absorb 50%. i don't deny. and linkeong 25%. ;)
so, that is the story of cheras. i am going to miss my home. luckily monday is a holiday so i have one day to emo/homesick gaogao before class starts!
i am going through a phase ;) and it seems that in this phase, when i do write, i tend to talk less.
time to pack my bag.
bye seremban ;)
slam dunk rocks. i am currently in the SL craze again. haha, had just finished watching episode 101, such a disappointment that the show ends there. there is more, but only in manga form. i like anime .. T.T
anyways, back to where i am now. currently at home in seremban. chinese new year 2009 is rather dull, eventhough there is a slight increase in the number of red packets. but what about the content? don't break my heart. lol. i plan to buy an epilator and save up the rest. cannot bear with my pineapple-like leg, heard phillips is good ;)
one thing i like about chinese new year this time around is i get to be with my family. just mom, dad, and bro. i love waking up every morning hearing their voices, talking and interacting. except the part when they start nagging me unnecessarily. lol. family dinners are good, not awesome. i always prefer small gatherings rather than big ones, what is the point of having MANY small groups in a ONE big gathering?
i am going back to cheras tomorrow. and chinese new year has not even ended. i always leave with a heavy heart, and i dislike this feeling, which is why i don't come home every week. am i homely? maybe, not fully, cause i also have this urge to go to far places by myself. do you feel the same? anyways, back to cheras, what comes to my mind now is prof. aisyah. lol. speaking of prof. aisyah, she is one of the medic lecturers whom i have respect for. i feel kinda bad for not doing well in the previous FA. the fact that i used the word 'kinda' made me feel even worse now. lol. i need to start reading the BOOKS that i have bought. eventhough i prefer audio/visual learning. lol. according to linkeong, i will only absorb 50%. i don't deny. and linkeong 25%. ;)
so, that is the story of cheras. i am going to miss my home. luckily monday is a holiday so i have one day to emo/homesick gaogao before class starts!
i am going through a phase ;) and it seems that in this phase, when i do write, i tend to talk less.
time to pack my bag.
bye seremban ;)
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
a note.
smells like teen spirit, oh you remind me of that song,
NO, it's the other way round.
don't you get it? damn, you fool!
i miss you, oh i really do.
at this moment, i wish to go back.
and have a taste of your rudiments.
i miss you so badly. i want you.
my love i need a time machine.
my head spins, my heart yearns for you.
oh, seventeen.
oh, we rocked it.
hell yeah, we so did.
jess.
NO, it's the other way round.
don't you get it? damn, you fool!
i miss you, oh i really do.
at this moment, i wish to go back.
and have a taste of your rudiments.
i miss you so badly. i want you.
my love i need a time machine.
my head spins, my heart yearns for you.
oh, seventeen.
oh, we rocked it.
hell yeah, we so did.
jess.
a trip to the park
(i am supposed to post this on the 17th of january. ;D)
hey all, sorry for the infrequent updates. you know me, i am very lazy. lol. anyways, have anyone of you been to taman pertanian negara/malaysia agriculture park? it is located in shah alam, also the first malaysia's agriculture park opened to public since 1986. say yes!!
i went to the park yesterday and man, was it awesome. i love love love mother nature especially forest and gardens. it was actually an outing with cg members, for the seniors and juniors. we went cycling around the scenic park while some of them took the free bus service for a tour within the park.
the first stop was the animal park. ladies and gentlemen, please lol with me. lol. it is pretty funny why they call it an animal park when there aren't any animals,only empty cages around. -.-" guess they relocated the animals somewhere from the original forest. but why... isn't forest their natural habitat.. boooo. since the animals were invisible so we only took pictures of the plants and trees. i had a fun time snapping away, dont know about the rest though. heeeee.
i had a mesmerising view of flora and the invigorating scent of fresh leaves, seen myriads of plants and sky high trees, all and a hanging bridge! ohhh *droool* my lovesss *big wet eyes* (4feetnine punya line)
we continued to cycle, downhill, uphill, flat road. i was the slowest but they were all very kind and waited for me. ahahaha. ehh, the last time i cycled was..err.. when i was 8? -.-" ahahaha. but anyways all was good and serenely fun. i laughed so much along the way until i got stomache, had wind for lunch. lalalalala. (before bike incident)
the next stop after animal park was the lake. gorgeous view! the stillness of the lake moved my heart. and the smell of grass, do you like the smell of grass? i do! can go fishing also! sounds fun right? oh you don't fancy fishing..lol fineeee. nice place though, ji yin did some drama there. ;D
moving on, we went to some place with more fishy. wahahaha. i do not know what is the place called, it is like a special place to rear fishes. to name a few, fei chow yu, ikan bawal, dot dot dot, dot dot dot, and some other local fish. hahaha. only two i know, pathetic nyer.
then we went to the Four Season House. so we get to experience winter within that particular temperature, light and air controlled chamber when we went. a rather special place, hey man i felt winter before! haha. and i secretly wanted to throw a snow ball at mr. snow man while i was in there. hahahahaha. took some pictures nia. would definitely love to see spring.
there are four themes spread over 3 months each.
hahaha, i forgot to tell you. there was another MINI animal park, a man-made MINI animal park.
few animals only but oh well,.. ;D
inside the four season house ;D
hey all, sorry for the infrequent updates. you know me, i am very lazy. lol. anyways, have anyone of you been to taman pertanian negara/malaysia agriculture park? it is located in shah alam, also the first malaysia's agriculture park opened to public since 1986. say yes!!
i went to the park yesterday and man, was it awesome. i love love love mother nature especially forest and gardens. it was actually an outing with cg members, for the seniors and juniors. we went cycling around the scenic park while some of them took the free bus service for a tour within the park.
the first stop was the animal park. ladies and gentlemen, please lol with me. lol. it is pretty funny why they call it an animal park when there aren't any animals,only empty cages around. -.-" guess they relocated the animals somewhere from the original forest. but why... isn't forest their natural habitat.. boooo. since the animals were invisible so we only took pictures of the plants and trees. i had a fun time snapping away, dont know about the rest though. heeeee.
i had a mesmerising view of flora and the invigorating scent of fresh leaves, seen myriads of plants and sky high trees, all and a hanging bridge! ohhh *droool* my lovesss *big wet eyes* (4feetnine punya line)
we continued to cycle, downhill, uphill, flat road. i was the slowest but they were all very kind and waited for me. ahahaha. ehh, the last time i cycled was..err.. when i was 8? -.-" ahahaha. but anyways all was good and serenely fun. i laughed so much along the way until i got stomache, had wind for lunch. lalalalala. (before bike incident)
the next stop after animal park was the lake. gorgeous view! the stillness of the lake moved my heart. and the smell of grass, do you like the smell of grass? i do! can go fishing also! sounds fun right? oh you don't fancy fishing..lol fineeee. nice place though, ji yin did some drama there. ;D
moving on, we went to some place with more fishy. wahahaha. i do not know what is the place called, it is like a special place to rear fishes. to name a few, fei chow yu, ikan bawal, dot dot dot, dot dot dot, and some other local fish. hahaha. only two i know, pathetic nyer.
then we went to the Four Season House. so we get to experience winter within that particular temperature, light and air controlled chamber when we went. a rather special place, hey man i felt winter before! haha. and i secretly wanted to throw a snow ball at mr. snow man while i was in there. hahahahaha. took some pictures nia. would definitely love to see spring.
there are four themes spread over 3 months each.
Winter season garden is exhibited from December to February.
Spring season garden is exhibited from March to May.
Summer season garden is exhibited from June to August.
Autumn season garden is exhibited from September to November.
COOL?
then we cycled back. we did not finish our tour/exploring the entire park. on our way back, i passed by taman cendawan and taman orkid/bunga, rase-rase nak masuk gak.. mane boleh orang nak balik kan.. lorrrr. tak pe ah, lain kali ;) lol. some time after that, alright, here comes the bike incident. i crashed when i was cycling downhill. you saw my beautiful drawing.. lol. i thank god once again for nothing bad/serious happened to me *choi choi tai ka lei si* nevertheless, the minor injuries did nothing to my joy. after all that fun and sight feast.. i was really thrilled. happy and happily, i enjoyed myself. a happy satisfied injured chick. lol.
nah, show you the pictures. lol ;)
hahaha, i forgot to tell you. there was another MINI animal park, a man-made MINI animal park.
few animals only but oh well,.. ;D
inside the four season house ;D
hello thr!
byebye santa. hello fishy.
that's all. then we went home. i guess most of us enjoyed ourselves and had a great time there. but i messed thing up a little and made everyone worried. sorry guys and thanks for taking care of me jessie, akita, etc. hehe. and last but not least, i present you the emo bunny.
bunny sedang merajuk. T.T
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